Rexanne Collins

I am so thankful that we are capable of growing closer and closer to God. I am thankful for second chances. I am thankful that God never fails me. I am thankful that He walks with me, and sometimes even carries me.

This is where the rubber meets the road so to speak. There is no sugar coating…..My story is a story of triumph and how God can take a lowly sinner and turn her into a warrior for the Kingdom of God.

 

The Past Me:

I grew up in church. My family is I guess what you would call very religious. There is an entire network of strong Christian women in my family. My grandmother who has gone on to be with Jesus was an amazing woman of God who led by example.

In 2008, I separated from my high school sweetheart and husband of almost 20 years. We had three children together, and for that I am eternally thankful to God. This was perhaps the darkest time of my life. I can honestly say that my emotional, physical and spiritual exhaustion allowed a door to open in which the devil could slip in and negatively affect my faith that God could fix things. I refuse to play the blame game and fully accept responsibility for where I failed.

I was 39 (years young), and the future seemed so bleak and unsure. I made a lot of mistakes, and looking back I know the devil was right in the middle of all of it stringing me along, confusing me and helping me to press the button for what could only be described as self-destruction.

I was listening to the wrong voice, and it affected my life in ways beyond anything I ever thought possible. I was in church. I considered myself a prayer warrior and servant of God and with almost the snap of my fingers I was navigating dark, treacherous waters.

In 2009 we were officially divorced, and my spiritual downward spiral continued. I was now a single mother of 3, trying to pick up the pieces of my life. I felt so alone and unsure of the future. I was overwhelmed by just the tremendous change that was occurring in my day to day living. I could have used that time to lean on God’s strength, and instead I continued to try and lean on my own….BIG mistake.

I was weak. I was immature in my faith even though I had been a Christian for years. I lacked dedication and devotion. I allowed the devil to lead me astray over and over and over. I allowed my circumstances, trials and the evil forces around me affect my Christian walk to the point that I tried to live in the world and serve God at the same time….it doesn’t work.

I have been a Christian since the age of 13, and it is with great regret that I admit I have not always been the Christian I should have.  One of the most beautiful things about God, however, is He never turns us away regardless of  how “bad” we have been.  No matter how many times I fail God, He continues to do a work in me.  Often, it takes me a while to come around to His way of thinking, but I always do!  The times I have lost my way and spent time in the wilderness have been the times I have learned the most about myself. As I look back and reflect on those experiences where God has allowed me to stray from Him, I can clearly see how He grew me, molded me and changed me so that I could do the things He has for me to do…..my PURPOSE.

It seems I have spent most of my adult life trying to find my purpose.  Perhaps if I had done less looking and more listening I would have found it much sooner.  At first glance it would appear that each time God put me on the right path, His plan was derailed by some external force.  The last part of that sentence is true….the enemy works daily to destroy God’s plans for us. Guess what!   He can win the battle but not the war.  Truth is God has used the advances of the enemy to GROW me more!!!! (giggle, giggle)…

The most beautiful part of the trials of life is that God can do amazing things even with our failures. I am a strong Christian woman today, and there is nothing the devil can bring that will cause me to go back into the darkness. I may stumble a little, but I am my Father’s CHILD and in His presence I will remain.

 

Today’s Me:

  • I CRAVE a deeper relationship with my Abba Father.
  • I have a constant DESIRE for Him to overwhelm me with His presence.
  • I STRIVE daily to be better, so that I can be a more effective witness for Him.
  • I SEEK to honor Him in all I say and do.
  • I have absolute FAITH that my God can do anything.
  • I PRAY with great expectation that He will reveal Himself in miraculous and supernatural ways (and He does!).
  • I have LEARNED valuable lessons in my own failures that allow me to witness and minister to others.

Sometimes, I don’t act my age (gasp, again), but that is entirely due to the fact that I am a kid at heart.  I love adventure.  I love to cut up and act silly, and I truly believe the fountain of youth is found in the land of laughter.  I have three children.  I say “children”  because they will always be my babies, but in reality they range from 16-24 years of age.  I am honored to say that I have one grandchild and she has stolen my heart.

On September 14, 2013, I married my soul mate, love of my life, and my best friend, Jason. God is doing amazing things in our lives and our marriage. He has called us into ministry and we are doing work with a poverty stricken village outside of Santiago in the Dominican Republic. My life is so full, and I am so happy. I am full of joy as I serve the Lord daily. I am forever in His debt for what He has done in my life.

Today, I have a life, the life I have dreamed of for as long as I can remember. I have a husband who loves and adores me – a husband who loves God with all his heart, mind and soul. A husband who leads our family. A husband who serves the Lord daily. God had a purpose for me and little did I know it would come to be one of the greatest pleasures of my life.

Along with uniting me with my soul mate, God placed a calling on our lives. Today, one can find us ministering to couples via our Fireproof Your Marriage ministry, or in the Dominican Republic feeding, clothing and witnessing to the poverty stricken villages. We are even available to speak wherever we are called to share our story, what we do and what God can do in one’s life.

God has placed such a huge calling on our lives and for that I am eternally grateful. I am honored to serve Him.

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